I was warned not to check on the internet as this may give me worst scenario which is not very nice. But who can’t stop a person wondering for an answer. Once I got home, i started browsing on the internet and my researches gave me answers. What is diaphragmatic hernia? What caused it? What happens after delivery and how is it treated? In all the researches I have done, it all shows one similar thing. Case is very rare (1:2,500-3,500), very crucial, very serious and life threatening.
I feel sorry for my little boy Lucas. He has not even seen the world and yet, he is facing the worst trial of his life. I told him I will be strong for him and we will face this trial together. I comforted baby Lucas by a little pat in my tummy and reassuring him that everything will be alright. I told him that his family loves him so much and we can’t afford if anything bad happens to him. Dad kissed Baby Lucas and asked him to be strong for me and for himself. I can’t hold on to anything other than prayers. It’s going to be another 16 weeks before I deliver baby Lucas and the dilemma that we’re all going to face is very difficult.
It has been a very long weekend for me waiting to see the foetal consultant in City Hospital. I am hoping against hope. I am praying that everything is just a mistake. I had all the comforting words from my husband. I know he is not ok himself but I’m sure that he is trying to be calm and strong for me. He is assuring me that everything will turn out well the next time we see the next doctor. I have told Lianne that his little brother is not very well so we have to pray for his safety. My husband took us out for a weekend break to forget the worries, even for 2 days. Even I tried so hard to get the thoughts out of the way; there are still moments that tears just drop from nowhere.
Sleepless nights, long day of waiting and seeking answers to thousands of question. We have told the family and few friends about what is happening. It is sad news for everybody but we were given the assurance that we will be in their thoughts and prayers. It is very nice of them.
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