My QUIET JOURNEY TO MOTHERHOOD
Me and my husband Marlon were married for 12 years and has a 12 year old daughter, Lianne. Our life was full of excitement and laughter. We love travelling around and making the most of the weekends spending family day out. It is almost perfect, I should say. Until one day, while I am having an informal chat with my husband, we decided to plan for another baby. We have sought the help of family and friends to pray with us to make this wish of ours true. We prayed really hard for another baby. I remember once in prayer that I asked the help of my dad (who died 10 years ago) to whisper to Almighty Father our wish of having a new precious one. We also ask the assistance of my Obstetrician to give us advice to make this pregnancy happen.
It takes years for us to make this happen, until I have a test one afternoon that gave me a shocking result. My pregnancy test kit shows 2 lines…yes, it’s positive and I’m pregnant. I just can’t believe with what’s happening so I have done the test again, and again, and again…and settled after my 9th test. We are really happy and feeling so excited. I started imagining myself with the big bump and thinking of different scenario with me, my daughter and the newest member of the family.
I have shouted the good news to everybody…including the social network site, Facebook. Everyone is really happy for us. I started different researches in the internet about my baby’s development and even browsing the net looking for baby’s things like cots, car seats and push chairs. I don’t know where to begin. That’s how excited I am.
This pregnancy is never an easy one. I was 22 when I first got pregnant and this one is totally different. On my 7th week of pregnancy, I have noticed some bleeding coming out from me. I rushed to the hospital and investigations were done. “It’s just one of those things”, they told me. I was discharged home and was told that it’s normal to pass brown blood during the early pregnancy. I wasn’t convinced so I started browsing on the internet (my confidante at that time). And they gave me answers that weren’t really that clear to me. I didn’t stop worrying. But as the time goes on, it did settle and gave me a piece of mind. I went back to work and my colleagues are very helpful. Most of them are very considerate of my situation, although there are some who doesn’t seem to care.
I can’t wait to have my 12th week scan. I wanted my baby’s picture and so excited to share it to everyone. Scan went well. I was told that the baby is doing fine. We even see the baby move and waved to us. It was an unforgettable experience. I have also seen the midwife and heard the baby’s heartbeat. It was a relief and very reassuring.
I thought my worries are over. Then on my 19th week of pregnancy, here I go again. I’m back to the hospital with my brown discharges. After a thorough examination, the doctor explained to me that my cervix is closed and there’s no sign of active bleeding. The doctor diagnosed it as urinary tract infection and I was sent home with antibiotics. I started to wonder why everything is not going on smoothly. It has been numerous hospital visits and I am not even halfway with this pregnancy. But I calmed myself thinking that this baby is a gift and I should never complain.
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